this is pretty shitty..just when i was all geared up for my diving trip, this has to happen. Half of me is telling myself to go ahead, but the other half is holding back, for more reasons than one. shit mannn....i really really wanna go. its like something ive wanted to try for quite some time alr, and all my other friends have gone ahead to advance, and im like the only goondo left without basic. whose gonna accompany me for my basic mans??!!! siansss..and the monsoon season is coming. am i like really resigned to going to somewhere like pulau hantu for basic open water?sianss..this is really quite depressing...on a sat night some more.

and as i review my life now, i can gather a few points:
-clubbing almost every week
-drinking almost every time
-meeting the same few people every week (ie. almost zero expansion of social circle)
-other than clubbing, its all about work, which is pretty demoralising 99% of the time.
-family life is dwindling, and im trying to salvage it
-my bank acct is dwindling by an even larger margin, and im doing almost nothing to remedy the situation.
-i dont have a girlfriend, or even someone i fancy, and the best part is, im not in the least bit bothered.

As sharp-minded people like you would probably notice, solving the last point would mean solving everything. If i manage to get a gf and settle down, she would manage my accounts for me (as in restrict me from spending money on the latest handphone in town so she could spend it on a really pretty dress which in her opinion is "money well spent"). I can drag her to eat with my parents, which is really good planning on my part cuz its killing two birds with one stone. I spend quality time with her, and i dont compromise on family time. pretty smart aint it? ;) work will remain as sucky as usual, but at least i got somebody to whine to whenever i need to. u noe somewhat like a punching bag, just that in the verbal sense. u get wad i mean. well, isnt that what true love is all about, being with each other for better or worse. that entitles me to whine whenever im pissed off with something isnt it? she will forbid me to go clubbing with the guys, which means i will still go anw, but i will have to do so on the sly, which also means i will most probably cut down on the trips and the booze. As you can see, isnt having a gf the perfect solution to all my vices?
but then, of course, this is all very ideal, and having someone my side entails a whole new set of problems, while at the same time not exactly solving the current ones. and as of now, i have no wish to settle down, unless u can find a gal who will fit the above requirements perfectly. if anyone manage to do so can always intro her to me. thanks. meanwhile, see ya at MAMBO. CHEERS!